Too little, Too late

He left me without a word again. This time I don’t know why it hurts more than usual. He left with his stares stuck in my head. He did not smile nor did he speak a word. I waited for him to appear at the place but he is no where to be seen. I keep looking at the door with hopes held high that he might appear. Neither had I seen him during break, at courtyard. And someone had to tell me that he left to go somewhere on Earth that is miles away from here that morning. I was speechless. He left me unsaid. He leaves and then come back quietly. I then realize I was nobody to him. I had to let him go soon but my heart just stops me from doing so. I knew something was not right ever since he gave me that no pause stare. I was stupid to look away. I was foolish not to stare back. I was silly enough to just ignore him. Now I’m leaving in regrets. I have to learn to stay away from him but this is just too sudden. I can’t simply take it. Everything happens to fast. He sent regards but that doesn’t tell everything. Now, he’s away, far from here. I admit I still love him, I lied when I said I had no more feelings for him. I lied when I say I hate him, in fact I still does. I love him. I miss him. People ask what happens but I pretend not to hear them because I don’t want to bring up the past which hurts a lot. Now, I just have to let him go and obviously enjoy himself. Let him has his mind at ease and forget me when he’s back here and allow me to carry the burden myself which I had promised him so. Shits, I miss you more than usual. I miss staring you at courtyard. I miss him looking at with his ‘I love you’ looks. I just miss everything single thing that he does which makes me smile.

Baby, now I’m in pieces
I need you right here
To fix the broken parts.