cigarettes and cola.

TODAY

2010-06-24T01:18:00.000-07:00

fast & short update.

this blog is super dead.im thinking of deleting it.SOON ah SOON,wait for it.-.- getting back,since yesterday was at sister's place.didnt want to get back at home.its more chilling here ppl.heee.anw, kinda bored here too or maybe my phone went tooo silent for how many days.it became countless.i was too frustrated when my phone use to ring every now or then.but now, i miss that moment.i want my phone to ring badly.its TOO SILENTS.tsk.i text random ppl when times i get bored.okay now im really bored and getting back at tumblr.ok bye.

i'll on hiatus here.

2010-06-14T09:55:00.000-07:00

I''LL BE AWAY FROM HERE FOR THE TIME BEING AS I WILL BE MORE FREQUENTLY UPDATING MY TUMBLR. I WILL UPDATE HERE AS AND WHEN.
TUMBLR; http://kiss-hergoodbye.tumblr.com/

i miss my own blogg. ):

2010-06-02T05:58:00.000-07:00

omggggg.i miss my own blog.its been a month plus-plus since i update and take a look at this blog.its not im lazy.its just that i didnt have the time to blog!so im taking this June holidays as an opportunity to blogg.
2 day camp was over.it was motivational camp.well it started & ended well.except had to face that i dont wish to face.anw, it was a good camp. it benefited me alot.(: was good to be there and attend the camp.
real school & lessons officially starts tomorrow.[yippeee. -.-]super excited not.i wonder how will turn out like.furthermore the weather is unbearable these days. :| how how how?and extra lessons are super extended.it could last like for 3 hours for a subject.food & nutrition, dont talk about it. HAHAHA.i will ENDURE until 9 June and then enjoy the rest of my holidays like normal.except still study and have tuitions.hmmmm.need a proper time management. someone wants to help ? ;D

M, imy ♥. :|

why is it difficult for us to be like usual.like normal people do.like them.is it hard or is it us.oh no wait, is it you or is it me.who is trying to be difficult here now.he is helping us out.poor him.i tell him dont bother.but he still carries on.i still want to know why he is going through all the trouble and making things right between us but here we are acting like nothing had happen and we dont know each other.isnt it selfish?i swear i didnt know is it you or me or us?it hurts seeing you right in front of my eyes but i couldnt do anything but just stare at you at a moment and then look away.its meaningless.we cant even smile.sometime i tried to smile you just stare.what was that suppose to meean?even strangers could smile to each other.gosh.im tired living in this kind of act & life which is full of drama.i am over you.but have you?come clean with it.shit happens..think about it and think about it AGAIN.im tired.and want to end all things right now.something amiss. ):

Paranoid

2010-04-23T00:44:00.000-07:00

school's been fine.its just that i hardly find time to update this bloggy of mine.mid year had just started.had English paper 1 & 2 yesterday.paper 1 is tough i must say,while paper 2 is manageable.today was Malay paper 1 & 2 also.andd it will be the first time me saying the paper is tough.hmm.well, i did my best, i hope.this week have been rather a hectic and tough week to survive.people are so paranoid these days.and its very difficult to understand the situation.when you are trying to get away and not get involved,eventually, you are involved indirectly.people got to stop and try to think and get to the very bottom of everything before jumping to conclusions.i hate it when that happens.its not fair for the ones who are affected.have a heart and mind, think.PLEASE.i i want to end everything with him.i am so sick and tired of living this kind of life.i started the fire and now i, myself going to stop the fire from spreading.wish me luck for the rest of my upcoming months.

people, get your facts right.don't accuse when you don't witnessed it.don't prove it when you don't even have proof.try being in that person's shoe whom you blame but at the end of the day that person is innocent and you had risked a life.

i dont live to please you, bitches.

2010-04-11T06:54:00.000-07:00

those were all friday pictures.SADD met up at aqilah's crib.movie watch and photo taking was heaven!hah.Dee's mood was spoilt a bit when she received messages from her friends.Babe, its okayy.PEOPLE COME AND GO uhh.but SADD will be forever with you.we will stick by each other sides alrights?we have each other you know.HEH!who needs guys to be around.we can live without guys laa kann.hang out at her crib till 730 then left.I LOVE THEM!our friendship of 10 years and counting is never wasted.we know each other very well.we trust each other.we got each other back evertime.we love ourselves more than our boyfriends love us.HAH!after spent the evening with them, head home and spent the rest of night at home with my family.thats for friday.saturday was nice.had religious class and then went to chalet then DONE!&& SUNDAY, went out go studying with SAD only.really we DID study okaay..went home at 7pm.then after then at 8++ meet Abg!weeeee!he sent me once on Thursday.and just now he asked me out for a while.GOSH.he got a new life now. ): tskkkk. im jealous.but im happy.i got what i wanted.i love him and sure do miss him nowww. ): ''YEY!TOMORROW MONDAY. -.-''

2010-04-04T01:06:00.000-07:00

haven't been updating this blog for long.banyak habuk sak..kay tipuu!on account of Nur Diana daughter of Mr Selamat,i have to update this blog lah okay.HAPPY?!hah.i still dont know what to update leyy Dee!haha.sorry for neglecting this blog.i've been busy lately with f&n.like seriously.i need to complete TA, Research & Development.if not, i have to drop.stuuupid or whuut!urgh!i need to finish it by hook or crook!HELPPPPPPPPPPPP!and obviously parents don't understand what im facing right now.mane nak handle stress kat skolah kat rumah pun same.goshh, i need a break!weekends are not a goood break siaaa!shuckks.i will update moreee sooon laaa kaay.need to do some assignments & send email to my ex-school teacher.bussssyyyyy perr diyaaannaaaa!hah. && dee, thanks for the new blog skin and the previous post! sayaaaaaaaaang kaaaaw!

now, i need to look for that someone.
not much that i know about him/her.
i just hope HIM,will allow us to meet again.
please Dear God.(:

2010-03-31T16:34:00.000-07:00

Hey, Dd here! Updating for this Yan because shes too lazy to update her blog. Blog sampai berhabuk sia, Yan. So, i just hope than Yan is strong enough to face all this shit. You know what i meant, right Yan? I mean, dont care with all this people who called you "Sundal" and all because afterall they are just referring to their ownself. I mean, they still got time eh, want to find fault with you and all. Like no life like that? Hahaha. Ohh, am i that harsh? Aw, too bad. You mess with my friend mean you're messing with me too! :) But, i think Yan got no time want to entertain this type of people, right Yan? Hahaha. I know, you know lahh. Apa mau risau? Zaman dah relek siol. Waktu bila, mau carik pasal, mau lanciowei pasal orang ni? Hahaha. Just ignore them, okay Yan? ^^ I love you siol. Hahaha, takecare biatch.

just one hope

2010-03-24T09:36:00.000-07:00

just one hope; to sleep and only wake up at the most happening moment in life.

I like the way it is,im more happier.

2010-03-12T06:41:00.000-08:00

haha,SWEET kan?she type it out for me.one of my juniors at sch & from Crescendo Theatre.(:

no,she's a diva. no,she's a princess. no, she's a queen. no,she's a brat. NO,she's is just a plain-simple boring bitch.(you know what i mean)

you suck more than I do

2010-03-11T04:39:00.000-08:00

hey miss i-know-everything, this piece is for you.
what else do you want from my f.perfect life.my life is always been better with or without you bitch.you don't affect my life a little.although you are such an eye-sore to people.you don't have to act nice to people who you hate.you don't have to pretend anymore.people know your true colour sucka!if that what you call acting, thats bullshit.you don't have to be a diva to suck up people life.btw, you suck by doing so.you can't achieve what you exactly wanted.you will never succeed in whatever you are doing(you know what i mean,bitch).you will be the one at the losing end bitch.theres nothing great about anybody.no one owns the world anyway.so why you must make such a big.f over small little things.are you a brat that way?or maybe you are happy that way, which i don't obviously CARE or give a shit to it.honestly, i thank you for saying all those things that you've mention about me.it makes me feel even greater.it never pulls me down a little.HAHA.&& you don't talk about islamic & sins stuffs in this kind of situation.it has NO links to it.gosh,such a disgrace.you have common sense of yours, so please use it wisely.god gives you to use it & not put it to waste.you once said to me that you are 16 & you no longer entertain this kind of stuffs, but tell me whats all this.YOU started it all.you are the MASTER-MIND.i didn't interfere in your life & why must you.now who's the 'kpo-queen'.&& if isnt obvious, your life is just full of jealousy towards me.you cant see other people happy before you.you must make them suffer then happy.you must be first.you want have to be the first.what so good about FIRST bitch.get yourself a PROPER LIFE can?everyone has a life but it depends how well you treat you life!i seriously got alot to say BUT i think I'm wasting my energy typing all out here & i shall throw it to your face one day.HAH.&& i'll be SINFUL be doing all this thing.HAHA!you sucka.

2010-03-09T08:07:00.000-08:00

i laugh hard.i smile everyday.i never stop looking happy.but they are just fake to tell you that i'm ok.i don't want you to worry.i don't want you to think that everything is your fault.to avoid that, i had to fake every feelings that i'm feeling.i hope you realise that although none realise that.

Too little, Too late

2010-03-09T07:53:00.001-08:00

He left me without a word again. This time I don’t know why it hurts more than usual. He left with his stares stuck in my head. He did not smile nor did he speak a word. I waited for him to appear at the place but he is no where to be seen. I keep looking at the door with hopes held high that he might appear. Neither had I seen him during break, at courtyard. And someone had to tell me that he left to go somewhere on Earth that is miles away from here that morning. I was speechless. He left me unsaid. He leaves and then come back quietly. I then realize I was nobody to him. I had to let him go soon but my heart just stops me from doing so. I knew something was not right ever since he gave me that no pause stare. I was stupid to look away. I was foolish not to stare back. I was silly enough to just ignore him. Now I’m leaving in regrets. I have to learn to stay away from him but this is just too sudden. I can’t simply take it. Everything happens to fast. He sent regards but that doesn’t tell everything. Now, he’s away, far from here. I admit I still love him, I lied when I said I had no more feelings for him. I lied when I say I hate him, in fact I still does. I love him. I miss him. People ask what happens but I pretend not to hear them because I don’t want to bring up the past which hurts a lot. Now, I just have to let him go and obviously enjoy himself. Let him has his mind at ease and forget me when he’s back here and allow me to carry the burden myself which I had promised him so. Shits, I miss you more than usual. I miss staring you at courtyard. I miss him looking at with his ‘I love you’ looks. I just miss everything single thing that he does which makes me smile.

Baby, now I’m in pieces
I need you right here
To fix the broken parts.

to the beloved Rasyidah

2010-03-06T08:37:00.000-08:00

Dear Rasyidah,
I hope you are feeling better now. I really hope that you are no more thinking of that nasty-stupid-asshole-jerk. He should be long forgotten now,you know. He doesnt deserve you as much as some other guy deserve you. Oh well,who doesnt know guys, they always use girls for pleasure. Tell them, if they love to play games, girls can do better. Girls are good at games. They have yet to show their flaws. Damn, guys suck. Trust me, i've experienced alot of this. They are just pure losers & liars. They are very good at lies. To think that about the guy i told you about is different, but, im wrong. He's as good as them. Darnn. Toi much for my love for him. I know is tough to forget and to let go. But sometiems, you got to. No point of holding onto when the other party has let go of it. Its foolish,girl. I've said alot to you the other day. Got to trust me on that. Well now, here im done.and you've yet to tagged me your link!!!

2010-02-22T05:39:00.000-08:00

heyall!! today is someones birthday.ive been dying to see and meet him to wish him Happy Birthday but i dont have a chance too.waaaalaaaao.hhee.sheeesh.i thot could meet him just now but didnt have a chance tooo.alaaamaaaak.sad you know.btw,thanks to Corey & Ella, im very elated today..because of them im like this.hahah.thanks yaw girls.pssst,btw,keep that big event of ours coming up kay!!!im soooo excited...

And alot of places i have to meet you is at Popular Bookstore.whaaaatthehelllll! -.- but im happy stilll.

2010-02-19T22:07:00.000-08:00

sleepless nightssss

2010-02-17T10:58:00.000-08:00

hey readers!its weird for me to update my blog now since its already 3am.im still not asleep yet.difficulties sleeping BUT i need alooooot of sleeeep lately!i tend to worn out myself tooo much i guess..whaaat to dooo.beeen doing late night studying..focusing too much on studies till i forgot about myself.currently im siccck.infected by Daddy.whaaaat the heeeeell.its seems like everyone in the house is taking turns to sick.first ws Mummy,then Daddy,then Iris,then me then Abang..hhah.passing the virus. -.- i'll be having maths ta1 ltr on.got to pass this one.wishh me luck people.and i'll be having CHINGAAAAAY after that!yeahhhh babeeeyyyy!!please do support us, the Junyuan Champs!thanks,much appreciated..& if its not obviious,im updating this blog using phone. -.-

shiitts,now i got tummmy cramps..hope wont be dragged to later

ain't nobody

2010-02-15T07:35:00.000-08:00

Ain’t nobody gonna treat me better
Ain’t nobody gonna touch me better
Ain’t nobody gonna love me better
More than you , than you
And you weren't here during Valentine
only God knows how much i suffer.

SWIMMING!

2010-02-15T07:22:00.000-08:00

gee.swimming with this psychotic-bitch was a blast.just look at picture,she is psycho enough.hhaa!i love you syaff!of course after hours of swimming we are tanned.dahlaa gelaap,nak gelap lagi.ape jekk!!so we met like arnd 1o3oam. there were few people arnd.so yeah.we enjoyed the time on our own.so cute laa gtuk..haha.really enjoyed the time with her.it has been a long time since we both met(bedek kepe!padahal padahal.heh).release tension while swimming.it feels so great after that!unfortunately,we lupe nak amek gambar laaaay deyy!haha.tu ah excited sangat kann..ameeek kaaww!at 1pm we headed home.both of us got family gathering to attend to.i have to go to woodlands for CNY celebration at cousin house.in fact, i spent my time there sleeping.hah.penaaat beb!sampai jek, attacked the food and ran to the sofa.yes, i will turn into a PIG soon enough!hha!so thats all about today.i malas nak elaborate.oh yeah,im think i falling sick.-.-

valentine's day

2010-02-14T07:54:00.000-08:00

nothing great about valentine's day.don't feel its like one.so anyway. 4e5 rockers was selling rose and chocolates on Friday to just commemorate Valentines Day.i think it went smoothly right guys?woohoo.i did help here and there.those pictures up there are presents which i got from Khidhir.sweeet kann?hah.a stalk of rose and a bear.i was like 'awwwwwwwwwwww, khidhir'!while was carrying those arnd the school,many stopped and asked.'is that from HIM'and i go'errrrrrr.....NO'.and i had to walk away.~saaaaaaaaap.i didn't expect anything from him though.hahaha.i will go jumping over the moon if those were from him.cheeeeyyyy.DIYANA mcm pahaaaam!i dont wish to brag about V'day.it has past 15 minutes ago.phewww.*mambo italiano dance*spent half of the day shopping with mummy.at last out of the house!will be going for a swim with dear syaff at 10am in the morning later.and at around 2pm will be heading to woodlands for CNY celebration.sungguh excited!haha.im so excited for this long weekend.i dont know why.i'm still up chatting with Ariffin.he is succha a good entertainer in the morning.he keeps me awake.hah!so this is it.im getting back at my coursework.finally i manage to get my work done on time(ALMOST).its a good achievement,diyana.keep it up!hhe.(:

sent you a 6 long text
was expecting a reply from you
but there was nothing on display
there were messages
it wasn't from you
after hours of waiting
i dont bother to check my phone
or even reply any messages

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?
You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day
I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl
Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day
Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you

in this lyrics,it explains everything.
i hope you understand.
its hard i already stop trying.
im just going on with life without you.
i hope i got the strength.
achieve your goals & get you old-self back
concentrate on what you prioritize
forget me & carry on with life, promise me that boy.
but i cant promise you that.
i promise you otherwise.(:
oh boy,im screwed!

2010-02-08T07:03:00.000-08:00

i've been thinking alot these days.
these are all the questions i've ponder.
and i still need the answers from you.

What about us?
What about everything that we've been through?
How about ending everything now,tonight?
Give up on me, and i shall give up on you too(or maybe NOT)
Where do the wonderful memories go to?
Didn't we tried hard enough?
Must i move on without you?
Whats the point of all this?
Can anything be done to make everything all right?
Why others can be happy but not US?

i think im done. so goodbye.

when you were first seen

2010-02-01T03:01:00.000-08:00

i don't exactly remember how was the first time my eyes were set on you.i tried hard to recall and i THINK i finally know how but not exactly the way they are.its was last year in the month of July.i noticed your group of friends but i didn't realise that you were one of them.the next day i noticed again your group of friends.only then i realise you were there.i stared and looked at you for quite a while.you smiled and i smiled back at you.we talked,we laughed,we joked.since then,i thought to myself...and i said 'i think i've fallen for him' and i'm very sure about that.i don't know how to get close to you.i don't know how to approach you.i wasn't sure if you felt the same way to so i kept back for awhile.i don't quite sure how we end up contacting each other.i felt that im somehow closer to you.you understands me the best.you know me best than others.i feel comfortable when im with you.then things change suddenly.we stop contacting.i didn't know the reason why.i finally figured out and we talk things out and soon it got better.and soon we became close again.and now time past really fast and you said that we no longer could continue the way we could.i kept quite.i know life will suck without you.no one would to talk to at late night.no one would cheer me up like you used to.unfortunately,yesterday was your last call.*sad face*i miss every second of everything you do.but its finally like a wish came true that we walked to school together.and i got to hug you tight.i didn't want to let go.but i eventually did.i dont want to be hurt later.noww i really feel lost without you.i want you baccckk suckkaaa!i love you and nothing hurts more than without you here by my side.who should i turn to?who should i talk to now?now i hate February to come!i will endure this year without you,i guess.what if i couldnt?

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
Cause everything you do
And words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And I am left with nothing

So maybe its true
That I cant live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
Cause when i close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

I'll be back

2010-01-29T05:00:00.000-08:00

so yeah, i'll be on HIATUS!

I SHALL SEE YOU PEOPLE SOOON!(:

its hard for me to find a little time to update this blog or do anything besides dating with my books.

2010-01-23T21:51:00.000-08:00

"Hard To Put Down,

I Could Almost Smell

The Honeysuckle & Soda

Bread But Also Feel

The Dread & Fear"

i want to be strong

2010-01-17T06:51:00.002-08:00

can i be like him?but a woman edition.strong.never feels tired.could fly around.be a hero.saves people that you love.being admired by people around you.cool right?i still got UN-done homework. P.O.A hwk is another killer.i dont understand a thingg!and i owe Mr Ivan 3 sets of his homework.heh.sorry Mr Ivan!*grins*im like still cracking my brains on this F&N laaaa.tmrw got F&N...&& tmrw lessons are suchh very looonnggg.all consists of 3 periods EACH!-__________- im getting ready to sleep in class tmrw.woohoo!dah ah.im F.tired & i want to continue with F&N.im still stuck with pg1!&& i realise something..im stuck with the song Whatcha Say-Jason Derulo & Yank-Wali Band.eh daaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ahhhhhhhhhhhh.
amigos! ;D

i tak mahu face school besok!(:

hating the feeling

2010-01-16T07:41:00.001-08:00

it'll be another short update.currently im not well.im down with F E V E R, F L U, C O U G H S & N O S E B L O C K E D!hate the feeling that im feeling right now.despite the feeling im going thru, im still drowning myself with coke.it feels HEAVEN.*happy dance*okay now,i really need to get my task analysis done!tooodles ppl.(:and its SUNDAY!and soon it school week again.time flies.

i was wrong for so long
only trying to please myself
i was caught in his lust
When I don't really want no one else
So, now I know I should've treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

So let me in give me another chance
To really be your girl
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me boy

im exhausted.im weak.im no longer who i am.
i want to join my late-dear uncle.(:
but yet i dont wish too cause im terrified.

2010-01-15T07:16:00.000-08:00

WHAT OTHER MISTAKE I HAVE DONE THIS TIME?!
MAKE ME REALISE & MAKE ME KNOWS IT.

2010-01-15T06:14:00.000-08:00

a very quick update of this week.AGAIN,it went very fast without me realising it..well,of course i've been rather wasting most of my precious time..NUR DIYANA BTE DAUD has promised herself that she will be a good girl and start studying intensely next week onwards without wasting her F.PRECIOUS time.woooohoooo!
kay now i just came back from meet the parent session.it was so damn merepek.first there was a talk,then talk again and then talk and like finally the LAST talk.and accompanied my bro and her wifey to eat that was laid and then proceed to classroom for ANOTHER talk AGAIN.imagine how many talk there was!
and in the was hall i was sitting with then 5Ns dude.faid was with chia, im left alone.and there was this part i was fucking in pain.didn't mean to interrupt faid and chia conver.and i was left alone behind.and seeing you enjoying with your friends.explains everything i guess.
im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry.
hate me now.hate me for all i care.
im sucha bitch,a whore,hypocrite,egoist,emotional.
vent in on me dude.
i suck big time,i know.

could i just pause this game of life
and then play it back when i feel like it.
then pause it again as when i feel its the
right time to move on.(&& i know its never gonna happen)

2010-01-11T06:29:00.000-08:00

im shall update a short post for this dying blog of mine.i won't be updating this blog regularly.maybe on weekends only OR if i can find the right time to do it.so i shall just update you ppl about my first week of school which is last week.so last week was a very good week to start school with except for some lessons which i can take it cause its toooooo long & made me slept in class.like PHYSICS!&& this week start off very hectic.receive O'lvl coursework question.brainstorm like my brain is not in my skull.&& still hoping i can go through this another week of school.so now i got to reaaalllly gooooooooooooooooo!&& i need to rush on my courseworkk...
Amigos.

Barbie!

2009-12-25T00:18:00.000-08:00

I've been watching alot of Barbie Movies these days. She's beautiful. I've been dreaming alot about Fairy tales. Thanks to watching all these movies.*grins* I just finished watching 'Barbie as The Island Princess.' Next will be the Barbie Fairytopia or Barbie Mariposa. Chalos.

2009-12-24T07:19:00.000-08:00

Im soooo freakin' lazy to update this blog. Let it rot for a while lah. Nothing much happened, what for wanna update right? I'll update once good things happens, alright? Goodnight.

Dear Daanish,

2009-12-23T08:29:00.000-08:00

MUHD DANISH BIN MOHD NOORJASAH

P/S: i make twice spelling mistake of his dad's name. Currently im on the phone with Daanish since 12 midnight. He's talking crap on the line from beginning of the phone call. -.- I had to keep on layaning him like forever! It seem like EVERYONE is calling you GILA right?! And he keep going 'you know what?' and i'll go 'WHAT'' *both laughing away* Hahah. Like from starting of the call. His irritating, fun and great! Thanks daanish for lightening my night.(: He's a great company ya'know.

2009-12-23T01:55:00.000-08:00

Life is too short to wake up in the morning
with REGRETS, so love the people who treat
you right & forget about who don't &
believe that everything happens for a reason.
If you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said it would be easy,
They just promised that it would be WORTH IT.

Dee, some how this is for you. Be strong, girl! We (Syaff/Aqilah/Diyana) will be there for you. I love you , CRAZY-WILD-BITCH! :B

2009-12-22T07:26:00.000-08:00

Hahaha, so now its Diana here! Yupp that girl in the picture. So, I just wanna say that I freakin' miss Syaf/Qilah/Yan like alot! Hahaha. (more than i miss my stupid blanket) And hello, for today i ate 3 cups of noodles and 4 cans of cokes! Hahah. Damn, im such a swine bitch! Nowadays, im closer to them, seriously. I mean we talked crap on the net especially Syaf. She told me about how excited she is when she use a vacuum?!! Haha. A big WTH for you, syaffy. And right now, im bored. Oh, talked to Yan about how lame Jihan show is. I mean for goodness sake, this freakin' show hasnt end yet! Oh i forgot, sinetron apaaa! And she told me that Adri is hot, and this time i should agree with her! Ouh my god. *melts* Hahaha. I find Korean actress are pretty because thy are bunch of skinny bitches. Right? Haha. So, yea. There you go! Its my lovely post. Duhhhh~ Hahah! But still, i cant deny that i can only depend on them right now. Like me, facing all this freakin' shit! Haiyas. Whatever it is, I lurbxxx Euux guysshhx horxz.

-DEEDEELEE-

dear mr santa

2009-12-22T07:08:00.000-08:00

Some PEOPLE force me to post this on my blog! Read it, okay? IN YOUR FACE!

DIANA IS GETTING CUTER AND PRETTIER! -___-

Dee, this is for you kay? Nah, she doesnt force but just giving me the idea. Hahahah! Its true okay about this one. Hahah, CHRISTMAS COME QUICK, I WANNA MEET SANTA!

never be replaced

2009-12-21T23:53:00.001-08:00

The ever first song of friendship between S.A.D.D. kan kan kan?!!! :D I MISS YOU BITCHESSSSSXZXXZ!

missed much

2009-12-21T09:03:00.000-08:00

FINALLY, get to listen to their voices! I freakin' miss them like so freakin' much more than Dee miss her stupid blanket. Hahaha! Finally finally finally although they are not back yet, but by calling me is good enough. Aku still rindu korang okay?!! Come home soon, as soon as possible! :D

better then yesterday

2009-12-20T23:41:00.000-08:00

Blog's done. Thanks dee! :D Its better than ever! Well, i just came back from meeting Syaaff and Qilah. Had lunch at Mac then head to Qilah's crib. Watch movies, 'Princess Protection Programme' and 'Hannah Montana' the movie. But i left halfway during the movie.mum called and had to go home. -.- And currently chatting with this weird girl name, DIANA. She is having a countdown for i dont know what. :|

itchy fingers

2009-12-20T08:56:00.000-08:00

Due to my itchy fingers, now my blog is messed up. First pic then the wording. Dee,tolong fix kan. *peace* Time check its, 0105AM. Im still not sleepy yet, i've been eating alot today. Im growing fatter!

random

2009-12-20T06:41:00.000-08:00

syaaff > Okay aku agree blog kau lagi lawa, okay? Haha. Anway, your post about S.A.D.D is very touching. Very sweet of you! :}
dee>Thanks editkan blog aku except for the picture. I still dont like the pic although you like it. -.- Haha. Anyway, thank you very much! Mwahh!

Im so loving my blog right now. Its very pretaaaay~ And i love editing. Haha, okay now im so bored. I'll be update later at night. Anyway, yesterday night was a very fun night with someone accompany you to sleep. Right Syaaff? Haha. And syaff is totally right about the school reopen. I want to go back soon and i'm so ready for school.

IMMA SUPERGIRL. YEYYY. hahahaha

2009-12-20T05:56:00.000-08:00

hehe. Diyana doesnt know that im updating her blog right now *evilsmiles*
Syaaff here! im not updating for her but im just posting for her curze im in a critical state of mundane. -____-
i want school to reopen fast ! eventho ive not yet touch any of my assingments. hmm,i bet diyana wants school to reopen asap too ^^ kan yan ? hehhh.

anyways, i had a hard time getting to this crazy girl's blog -.o Dee gave me the wrong email add to her blog account. podaa! i was the one who created the username and password but fail to remember due to my short term memory. sighs ... haaaa!

anyway Yan, me thinks me blog is nicer laaa! *grins* neh,just kidding. soo i guess im done for now. talk to you soon aites !

:D

total nonsense

2009-12-19T08:09:00.000-08:00

see how nonsense he is.

Time check, 1215 am. Im still not asleep. Chatting with syaff and someone else and before that was chatting with Afnan. *the above pic* Merepek sungguh kan? And i took a long time to edit the pic of S.A.D.D. Sakit siul mate! Currently watching winter sonata. The movie is so sweet and romantic.okay, bye.

I miss them

2009-12-19T04:19:00.000-08:00

AKU RINDUUUUUUUU KORANG!
FARIZ BALIK SPORE CEPAAAAAT!
AKU RINDU KAU!
AKU NAK KAU NYANYIKAN AKU LIKE YOU USED TO!
I MISS THIS PPL SO MUCH. :((
HOW?

Like ATLAST my lappy audio problem is resolved! *jumps. Can watch movie like always. And now another problem is on. The song on my blog cant be played. Damn! Hunny, where you've been? I miss you too! Text me soon. Ouh gosh, im missing too much people! -.-

home alone

2009-12-16T06:56:00.000-08:00

Im stuck at home all alone for now. Parents went out. Got fariz to entertain me. He's such a good entertainer. We played msn games all this while from late afternoon just now. It seems like i've been winning alot. Kan fariz kan? *Jumps* And my two legs been hurting very badly. I can't hardly walk,grrr. Since yesterday sakit tak boleh tahan. Now waiting for ~~~~~~ to online! Hunny, online quick please! :B

when love takes over

2009-12-15T22:49:00.000-08:00

"We're all little weird,and lifes
a little weird.And when you
find someone whose weirdness
is compatible with ours we
join up in mutual weirdness and
call it LOVE."
Xoxo,
Yan

kaki gereks

2009-12-15T05:45:00.000-08:00

Been out with these kaki gereks! Ouh and Danish too! :) Had much fun at first and then mood swings here and there. Sorry kalau buat korang binget. And came the best part when me and Fariz were really arguing about something that i just realise, a verrrrry heart pain one! But everything is settled. Hahaha, bachin kau Fariz! Nasib kau disayang oleh aku. Hahaha, okay now im very upset with my lappy,:( Audio problem. Sedih or what. Sekejap ader bunyi, sekejap tkder. Apa cita ni?! Aku nak dgr lagu mcm manerr?! I WANT TO GO BACK SCHOOL. Okay, im done here. Nights.

PARTY ALL NIGHT

2009-12-07T22:33:00.000-08:00

After a long thought of whether should i use the lappy or not, i finally decided to use it. WOW. What a tough decision to make. Hahaha! I've been away for the past day so thats why i didn't have time to update this blog. And further more i was too tired to on the lappy and update. So what now? I don't know what to update about. Let me tell you what im busy with starting from today onwards. Wedding preparation for abang wedding that fall's on the 1,2,3 January 2010. I plan to skip sch on the first day of school. Hahah! There's alot to do for his wedding but it seems that the bride and groom is not at all PANIC! They are still moving on with their lifes as per normal. Go out and go work like normal. No break ah? Fun ah their life? Hahaha. I think i better stop as im going to get ready for tuition soon. Yes,TUITION! Tuition will start today. I hope i will enjoy and its better because i don't have to step out of the HOUSE. I shall update tomorrow? Or maybe not, after im back from my sister house. Tc.

TIGER WOODS

2009-12-03T06:55:00.000-08:00

He caught my eye. Whats wrong with that? I told someone about this last night and he laughed at me about it. Haha! LMFAO. He caught my eye recently when he kept on appearing at the news and ET(entertainment tonight). His oh-so-hot! *melts.

memorable pichas!

2009-12-02T07:09:00.000-08:00

cross-stitching done during lower sec
pri sch prefect tie

prefect badges! neorints

indian dance accesories

i was cleaning my room and i found all these old & memorable stuff!hehs.

when it rains

2009-12-02T06:43:00.000-08:00

yes,i know..this is my second post of the day...well,im just super bored and i had nothing to do..sangat rajin eh aku update blog?oh wells,blog baru lah katekan.hehes.so anw,today went out for a while although its raining..first went to meet up with syaaff & aqilah at tamp inter.aqilah will be flying to ShangHai in few hours time..that was why we had a meet up before that..after a while,syaaff & aqilah had their own ways to go and me?went meet up with chiaa & zaiba arnd their area.i didnt want to be home that early..arnd 4pm i head home..need to be home by 43opm oi!haha.so thats about it for my day...quite a boring one uhh..im very sleepy actually.*yawwwwwwns*now im digging for pichas to upload....im quite rajin currently...*winks*

i waaaaaant to watch NEW MOON!

hugs & kisses,
Yan

one wish

2009-12-02T03:01:00.000-08:00

''So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy''

01122009

2009-12-01T07:49:00.000-08:00

hello ! yan here! (:
first i must give credits to SYAAFF for creating this blog for me..
anw,i DON'T LIKE IT!
but,i LOVE IT! *giggles*
i cannot be long so i try to make it short and sweet..
before im too late..lets wish my two dearest friend their anniversary which is today, 1st dec!
HAPPI ANNIVERSARY BABES! ;D
love you ppl!
i hope there will be peace here!

**syaaff,one more favour?insert kan lagu pls.hehs. ;D

hugs&kisses,
yan

SADD LOVES.

2009-12-01T07:06:00.000-08:00

Hello ! Syaaff here (:
im sucha good friend do you know that ? fyi Yan, shiddiq have to wait for hours just because im doing this HUGE FAVOUR for you! *laughs*
neh, with much sincerity im helping you woman ! hehs.
okay,here's your new blog. hope you like it.
Love ya'! xoxo.